CD 2 (cycle day 2)

So indeed I have started another cycle. It's kind of a relief when you're waiting and waiting for something to happen. I noticed I was extremely irritable yesterday, and even our dogs annoyed me. Hubby would be glad he wasn't around. ;-) I suppose the estrogen (I think) is a-ragin' and doin' its job at what it does! I haven't noticed the irritability like this in a long time... (telling myself not to read into it -- like maybe my body is finally getting ready for conception and carrying to term??) So I focused on watching an episode of Heroes and prepared a freezer meal. Also cramping is pretty bad.

Dear darling hubby returns Friday night from his work trip. I'm looking forward to us spending quality time with each other. I know that can get forgotten all too easily once baby comes!

Why, God?

I know we shouldn't question God, but... I just don't get it! A friend of a friend is 6 weeks pregnant with her 3rd child. She will have an 18-mo old, an infant, and a toddler in about 9 months! She is stressed and not very happy about it yet. It's unplanned and totally an accident. She had just been fitted for a diaphram! OOPS too late! Grrrrrr! I know this woman has been praying for us and I really do wish the best for her and her family. Any baby is a Precious Gift. However, with the struggle we have been through so far, I really do marvel at how many accident babies enter this world. I have to trust that God knows what's best for us and that He is walking right along with us in this journey!

Waaa It's Not Fair

I know we shouldn't question God, but... I just don't get it! A friend of a friend is 6 weeks pregnant with her 3rd child. She will have an 18-mo old, an infant, and a toddler in about 9 months! She is stressed and not very happy about it yet. It's unplanned and totally an accident. She had just been fitted for a diaphram! OOPS too late! Grrrrrr! I know this woman has been praying for us and I really do wish the best for her and her family. I have to trust that God knows what's best for me and that he is walking right along with me in this journey!

Just had to vent.

Returning Friday

Jason is to return Friday night. He's scheduled to fly out of Obregon, Mexico 1025 EST and arrive in Charlottesville @ 2040 EST (with a couple of different flights in between). The dogs and I will be so excited! He hasn't been feeling well. :( Something with his stomach and bad allergies. (No, he's not drinking the water.) He's ready to come home.

We had my good friend spend the weekend with her boys (1 and 4). They were a joy and the dogs loved having them. We both were so impressed with how well they did with the little kids. Yay that is great for us when and if we have the pitter patter of those little feet! ;-)

12 DPO, CD 32... or CD 1? (12 days past ovulation & cycle day 32... or cycle day 1?)

Not sure if I should mark this down as CD 1 (1st day of full red flow) or not... will decide tonight. My basal temps are still going down (see my fertility chart link)...

I'm not as sad anymore but am looking ahead now to a new cycle. Mainly just really tired from a fun weekend with my friend who brought her kids and spent 2 nights with me. (Hubby is in Mexico for a 2-week trip for work.) At best I have a 25% chance of conception each month (assuming good health). So I'm thinking next month has to be it! But I'm trying so hard to give it all up to God and pray that He knows the best timing for us.

Many thanks to all of you who are praying for us! {{{{HUGS}}}}